"I'm Lost"

I can't seem to make sense of my life right now.
Pathetic, empathetic, and confused.

If the world would just stop spinning for a minute maybe I could get my thoughts together.

whoopwhoop!

The "Six Week Body Makeover" infommercial is AMAZING.

Where do they find these people?

Almost more entertaining than the stupidness at the video store.

Jesus.

I think I'm going to start carrying around a video camera so I can send videos to ABC with my nominations for Supernanny. I'm pretty sure a full season's worth of couples with bad parenting skills could be found at my local Panera.

angry

Three or four years ago I chipped my front tooth on a glass. A drinking glass.
I got it fixed.
And about two minutes ago the new part of my tooth chipped off. RAR!

I am angry.

I guess it is time to go to the dentist.

a little hmm....

So...

I guess you could say that I am a happy person. I think, probably, generally more light-hearted and smiley than a lot of people. I am quick to cry, but quick to laugh, too!

That said, even though I had a lot of happy times this summer, it hasn't been a great one.

I'm tired of being poked and prodded. I have emotional problems with going to the doctor, and it comes across physically. I get shaky, my stomach hurts, my throat dries up, and I swear it is a pretty good trigger for my new-found asthma.
My new doctor is awesome, but her nurses make cry. They are seriously lacking is personal interaction skills. While this would bother me in every day life a bit, it would at least be tolerable. But at a time when I'm already distraught, it really just pushes me right over the edge. More than once they've pretended that I wasn't crying while they were talking to me.

It's pretty awesome


And summer is over.

Back By Popular Demand

So...life is hard sometimes. But it has to be all mind games, since I haven't done anything but work this week. And read. And hang out with Shannon. And practice a bit!

Yeah, you heard me right. I started a job this week. I'm pretty sure that no one is completely happy at their job, and even if they are, there is always something to complain about.
But as far as jobs go, a bank teller ain't a bad way to go. Air conditioning, pay isn't bad, I don't have to do food prep or wear an apron.

I'm still in training, so I haven't even started the actual "telling" yet, but it is interesting so far.

I need to decide if I should apply for a full time position that just opened up or not.

I want to leave time for weekend trips to Conway, to teach, and to play, but paying off student loans is good, too.
I think I'll work part-time for a while, and see how it goes. See how the symphony audition goes, and if I can line up any students this school year.
They say there is a high turnover at banks, so I'm sure another full-time position is bound to open up at some point.

It is very different being in the "real" world. I'm used to being in the academic world, and in a very specialized section of the academic world. Now I'm surrounded by people who, while they are very interested, and (oddly) impressed that I play instruments, don't know what a bassoon is. They wouldn't be interested in getting together to read through the Nielsen Quintet after work, or in having a reed making party.
I miss that.
Someone let me back in that world!!!
Preferably in a high paying way.

WTF?

Arrrgh!! Something is wrong with my blog layout. Is it only with crummy internet explorer that it is impossible to see everything on it? Do I know anything about Html, computers, or the internet? Not really.
I didn't even realize that my harry potter post wasn't visible until just now...
What is going on here?! I tried to fix it.

ALSO my Ava post is all messed up..you can't see the title..or the words!!

I think its the ministry of magic.... trying to limit the discussion of potter..and....ava's birthday...hmmmm...

WTF?

I'm not sure what the heck is wrong with my blog!! but stuff just isn't showing up. If only I knew anything about Html, or ...computers... maybe I could fix it. Blargh!!!

My Harry Potter post isn't even legible. Something fishy is going on here. Perhaps the Ministry of Magic is trying to limit blogs about such things.

(Nerd!)

Potter!!!

Finished year 7....
what do i do now?!?

Glass Pieces

Ok, Ok, so Glass Pieces is a piece by Philip Glass, I know.... However, Philip Johnson's Glass House is being reopened for public viewing. In Time magazine last week there was a story called "Splendor in Glass," detailing this reopening, and discussing the fate of other Modernist houses and buildings. You should check it out at time.com/glasshouse. The pictures of the Glass House are pretty amazing. My favorites though are of the other structures on the compound, such as the underground painting gallery, and the sculpture house. Craziness! And beautiful. And...clever. Those silly modernists.

Go look at the pictures now!!

yeah

Despite being nonfunctional in terms of contributing to society right now, i really have a good life. I have an awesome family, an awesome boy, great and beautiful friends, and two cute pigs.


Yay!

Birthday Girl!

Baby Ava, ready for cake!

First taste of sugar. Mmmm!! Yummy!!

Maybe she'll have a crazy intense sweet tooth like me!

Or, even better, maybe she'll be the first Cooper to possess some sort of musical talent! Or interest, even! She does like to bang away on their piano.... and on her new keyboard!

The Good, the Bad and the Smokey

The good:Harry Potter 5, I must say it, was excellent. way better than I thought I would be. I don't know if the heart murmur was just acting up or what, but I was definitely worked up in the first scene with the Dementors. I was scared! And I've read the book! But I did like it, it was exciting and awesome. Partially because anything even slightly heroic received huge applause from the audience.
Also, I went to the movie with a good friend from high school/early college. It was great to see her again! Hopefully there will be more Laura and Sam time in the future.

The bad: I guess the bad would be that evil Umbridge woman. I freakin hated her. The people sitting around me probably hated me for saying "kick her ass! uuurghh! kicker in the face!!!", too often.

The Smokey: I suppose that other than the fact that it was really smokey, the Wolf Trap portion of the evening would actually go under the "good" portion. It was like a mini high school reunion. Very mini. Buford, who I haven't seen since graduation from high school, and I reminisced about people we knew, classes we took, and people we wouldn't want to see at a high school reunion. Many enjoyable hours were spent in high school w/ Buford and Randi in class, and with Samantha in choir or on stage.

Sorry for the boring nature of this post.... its not too smart or witty, nor does it really make much of a statement. But it was a good evening.

Ok!

goodnight!

Blogging, eh?
I'm used to doing some myspace-ical babbling, so we shall see what occurs here.
Perhaps some music commentary, or some photos.

Whee!